Things Change. People Change.

hey peeps.im feeling bored rite now. well today was my English prelim paper. all i could say is that the paper was damn hard!!! paper 1(compo & situational writing) was ok..but paper 2(compre & close passage) was damn fucking difficult! haiz..stress man. but stil i wont give up. i believe i can do it.insyallah. anyway for my N level, my aim is to get A1 for my combined science (phy & chem) & Maths, B3 for my English, Malay and Combined humans.

so far my combined sci has improved alot. that same goes to maths. well for english i have no comment. at times i'm good, at times i'm really bad.for malay i think i have improved a lil bit. i really like cikgu badariah.she's like a mother to me.haha.i hate it when some of the students took advantage of her kindness la. u know..dont do her work and stuff..dont go ec and all. i will always go coz to me she's like my mum and i dun wana ever hurt her!!!i'm thankful that she becomes my malay teacher for this year!!i've never been taught by her b4 this.oh for combined humans ( SS & geog)..haiz..fuck it but this year its from bad to worse!!! i dun know what happen la. its just soo bad man.actually i've improved really alot for my SS thanks to mr farizal. he's one very kind lad. he's kind-hearted and soft-hearted too.his way of teaching is superb.but unfortunately, my geog teacher 4 this year is MR AW! LOL sorry if i make it as if he's so bad.haha.ok ok personally he's good and kind although he's full of sarcasm and gt a lil atitude prob. but honestly, i think he's teaching is not that good. he makes all things even complicated!i know he's tryin his best to make geog easier for us to understand but indirectly he makes it even difficult and confusing.well i know me not doing good in geog is bcoz i didnt study but still...even if i have to concentrate his lesson, i wouldnt understand a thing!! then if i wana ask qn pulak he will be u know quite pissed off and then he starts his sarcasm.thats y i NEVER will ask him qns....but mr farizal on the other hand,he's always willing when we ask him qns.

well so i hope i wil do good for my N this time ard. oh and to all of my clasmates esp. those repeaters.....I WISH ALL THE BEST 2 U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway i have to go now. well im taking care of my 3 months yr old nephew u see. wel my mum's out and danish's mum ( my sis) is working..and his father is sick so he has to take a rest ar..wel he's sleeping. so i have to take care of him! haha..cool. wel now feeding him milk while blogging. sempat eh???? well lets just hope he dun shit coz his shit is damn smelly and i dont wana cebok him!!! haha. wel im used to it though to baobao but i never cebok taik danish b4..LOL..k c ya peeps!!

Hey i'm back here posting!! anyway,today i went to TAF and then i asked my TAF teacher to check on my weight. and now my weight is 94.6kg!! woohoo!! i lose another 4 kg!!this means i've lost as much as 10 kg eversince 5 weeks ago!! previously was 104kg. well i know 94.6 kg is still very VERY heavy but at least im progressing.i'm really happy la. and now i started going to my neighbourhood park to jog for at least 1 hour in the evening around 7.30pm. i go either with my mum or sis. And im also using my power rider in my room..haha..to gain some muscles! LOL.

Anyway this Fri is my English prelim paper. actualy i'm not prepared yet. But then i guess i have to get ready ar. And the next forthnight is my Social studies and Malay 'N' level paper! yeah! it is coming real soon!!! this year, time is fast moving for sure.

so i am planning to buy the new creative mp4, ZEN V PLUS. it is really cool! haiz..i dun know when i can get it!! i want to buy the 2Gb one.actually last sunday, i went to search for it 2gether with my sis and bro-in-law but that model is not yet out in stores. i think it will only be released by early sept.leceh betul ar. i already cough up the money sey! oh it costs $269 (for 2Gb). quite cheap rite? wel actually i intended to buy Ipod Nano, but i've heard lots of negative stuffs abt Ipod Nano. etc, battery easily flat, can't accept some mp3 formats. Wel so im gona support Creative again la. its good that i support a local brand!!!

Creative Zen V plus

hey to whoever tagged me with the nick 'pissed off', ur pissed eh? ok let me get this straight now. my previous post might be kinda prejudice towards my adopted siblings.but that was bcoz i was just angry with them at tat time so maybe my words were rather hush.its not like i HATE them totally. i just hate their attitude like that. and U, 'pissed off', dun think u can judge me by my post bcoz if that is so,ur damn shallow-minded. anyway, u dun know what has the adopted siblings has been up to so pls stop sounding like u know better!

btw...u called me selfish and uncaring?u know what? i think thats true. coz i totally cant wait that my adopted siblings will be out frm my house. as again..i have reasons for this. but U, without knowing anything..thinks im bad or wadeva shit.

anyway u can blame me for being bad but not my mother. she totally care for the siblings. anyway my mum was forced to adopt them because the other foster mothers do not want them for fear they are naughty. but with opening heart, my mum accept them.

my mum served them food no different frm what she cook for us. she treat them as her own kids. i TRIED to treat them as my own siblings. but how they showed their gratitude? showing ignorance and arrogance. what im telin u is that my mother was too bloody kind to them that they actually took advantage of it..and they feel proud eversince. last month..no one was home except the 2 siblings and my sis. my sis bought for them fried chicken rice for them for lunch. and at nite..she bought for them chicken rice. u know what nabilah said? 'haiya...chicken rice again?' now tel me isnt that being rude??? i mean come on im nt even like that to my family and those siblings dare to said such things?so 'pissed off', if ur using the word 'poor girl', hmm i dun think thats true coz she is damn fucking lucky to have my mum who stupidly is good to her. my mum bought her good clothes and stuff. so u shouldnt said that they are 'stuck'. they should call themself lucky coz their life is much more 'luxurious' now.

now could u pity my mum now? she recently went to hospital due to heart attack. doc said its partly because she was stress. and i realised..she always have to scold the siblings almost EVERYDAY. and to think they still continue behaving badly although my mum is not as 'fit' as she used to be.anyway pissed of..im actually pissed of with U coz u sound as if u know my situation when u certainly dont. there's many more stories goin on which u dun know. hey but by all means we can meet so i can explain u all the stories if ur not satisfied??!!

i hate the looks of the kids whenever my mum bought for them stuffs and they look at it like as if the stuffs are SOO fucking cheap and worthless. they make it like as if they should be treated better. u see...they bein greedy. they shuld be thankful ok..coz b4 this, let me tel u they only have a few clothes man and their mum treated them badly.

i am being mean to them for some REASONS not without a reason. to tel u a truth, if u know me..i love kids. but what happens when a kid behave badly and took advantage of my mum? shud i treat them nicely?shuldnt they be scolded at least so to know they are in the wrong? is it my fault? u better get the facts right 'pissed off' b4 saying people.coz that seems so lame and pathetic. in case u dun know..my mum adopted 3 children rite..and the baobao..i love him soo much!!!he's good and i really love him as my own bro!

i hate it when people claimed we are bad without them knowing the truth. they make it sounds like we are such bad people. they think they are soo good and all..but the question is...can they handle the truth? would they good conscious people even thought of giving a helping hand? theres too many fake people in this world and it hard to judge them.

for other people who read this, u may see me as a bad person or wadeva shit i am but let me just tel u. u dun know me..and most importantly, u dun know the TRUTH. i cant please evryone rite?so its ur choice what u wana think of me. im trying my best to be a good brother to them although i showed such hatred. i am trying alot. and anyway...i was angry or dislike them not because they are 'adopted children' but because of their behaviour.so it wasnt beacuse of prejucide or discrimination.

anyway again, im sorry people if my previous posts was really fucked up. it shows too much hatred. but as again, i was at the point of time that i was really angry !! but if u think i treat my siblings badly, nopes i dun. we still live together happily. as i have told u many times..the thing that i hate is just their behaviour. not bcoz they are 'adopted' or wadeva. coz personally, they are ok. so in fact i talk to them normally..do stuff with them. no sign of showing hatred to them like what u think i am in some dramas where i do bad things to people who i hate. so as long as the kids behave themselves, i will be a better brother!

Last Saturday i went to Batam with my family( mum, dad, sis, bro-in law, nephew Danish, baobao and Hakim ) and my aunt,uncle and their daughter Aisyah. Before anything, i want to make clear that my nephew, Danish is my sis's son, whereas Baobao, Hakim and Nabilah is my adopted siblings. Ok so as u can see, Nabilah did not follow us to Batam. This is because, on the day b4 we went to Batam,which was on Friday, my mum found out she got chicken pox!!!!!!!!!!!!! so let me tell u the story ok!!!

It was on friday midnight la around 12+ am gitu. I was busy packing up my stuffs to the luggagein my room. The others were also doing their stuffs for the trip. Then, i went to the study room to pass my clothes to mum to help me iron my clothes la. So, at the study room, my mum tengah meleteh to Hakim and Nabilah who is very irritating la. then, my mum noticed some spots on Nabilah's body. My mum then asked her to remove her clothes . so i went put from the room 4 awhile.

Then, my mum realised there were many spots on Nabilah's body and she suspected it is chicken pox. Ok, and of coz u can imagine how angry we was. i mean, imagine, at the 11th hour, we just find out that nabilah got chicken pox !!! wtf man...susah sey kita dijadikan. always got problem!!! My mum was furious bcoz Nabilah should have told my mum la that she got 'spots' all over her body pe! takkan badan sendiri pon tak leh notice sey! ok la..maybe she didnt know its chicken pox, but still if she saw soooo many fucking spots in her body., she should at least tell my mum pe. bodoh la ni semua. always menyusahkan our family!!! and btw, nabilah has such 'spots' for few days ago. but at that time, when my mum asked her why is there a spot on her hand, nabilah said it is just a mosquito bite. and she keep saying that la.

sial la...and by that time after my mum meleteh, it was already 1+!!! so my mum intends to sent her to our neighbourhood clinic. so i accompanied my mum. man, it was midnite man..we were supposed to be asleep having a nice rest..and u know be happy!! but evrytings is just spoiled la bcoz of nabilah!!! not trying to be rude, but nabilah and hakim are but my ADOPTED siblings. sorry if im biased or prejudiced but i just had enuf of them!! sedar la diri dorang....dorang cuma PENUMPANG di rumah kita pe. but imagine...having my mum meleteh to them everyday and they making trouble evryday!!! seriously, ever since they stayed at my house, (they came to my house sinc elast year around july), there is no more peace in my home. evryday got problem. many things broken in my home since. Vacuum spoiled, vase broken and the list goes on. man..even me and my sis..who's my mum's biological children does not make such problem!!!! i dun know la..maybe their parents never teach them when they young. after all, their parents are also corrupted since they actually left their children?? haiz...im damn bloody furious.

so by the time we reached home after the clinic, it was 2+,reaching to 3 am. And what's more, we had to find a place for nabilah to stay la since we'll be going to batam what. we just cant leave her alone at home aite? and yeah..then we had to search a place for her by asking my aunts's house and stuff. Luckily, my mak long who lives at Tampines agreed to take care of Nabilah. so at that night juga we have to hantar Nabilah la becoz on the next day we have to be at the ferry terminal at 8 am. haiz...so i only get to sleep at 4am. and we have to wake up at 6 am!! so ya..i only get 2 hours of sleep! oh and not forgetting that nabilah's doctor consultation costs $77 la(midnight charge) and her batam's ferry tix and tour package which cost $60 had just gone wasted.

ok lets talk abt my trip to batam. seriously, it was really enjoyable!! haha...ok ...no i didnt went to the brothel or wadeva shit!haha...but yeah...we bought alot of stuffs like snacks and clothes. My family bought really alot of Ralph Lauren Polo's shirts because its very cheap in Batam. a cost of a Polo shirt in singapore cost as much as $60 and above..but in batam,it's just $20!!! yeah..its alot of difference!! this is because batam is a free-duty island , so there's no taxes or gst or anything la. and batam also has its own POLO manufacturing industry/factory there. thus the cheap costs!!!

oh and i also bought an imitation Nike digital watch. it looks cool..for me la. it cost $30(converted to s'pore rate). oh and we stayed in a 4 star hotel there named 'grand majesty hotel'. i was surprised that there is such a beautiful hotel in batam. as u know, i've always though that batam is a island that is very 'kampong' or rural. but i am shocked that it has alot of cool shopping malls there! its exacylt like any shopping malls in s'pore. of coz there is alot of villages and old-fashion houses..but still..its wonderful!! the hotel is the best. really comfortable and evryone there is frenly. some can be over-frenly la..esp the women there..HAHA!! i really enjoyed myself la...and i was back yesterday which is sunday ard 10pm. ok thats all i guess......

Hey peeps, i know it's been a week since i last post here. well so it's been a rather busy week for me. last thursday, i went out with my just-known frens khairiah and farhana to s'pore idol. the tix were given by our skool la. so it was a wonderful experience 4 me as i've never been to such shows b4. the noise there was crazy and every1 was just ecstatic!!

well ya..then on the next day itself, i had my Malay prelim paper. haiyo..it was damn difficult and i guess i totally screwed it up. but please, it wasnt because of the night b4 i went out that made me screwed up my paper!!! so teachers stop saying such things!!! well the paper was just damn difficult la. i've never been good in my Malay anyway.

Well then on Saturday and Sunday i just relax at home. it was the only opportunity i had to have a nice rest. On Monday, the beginning of the new week, i had my Geography prelim paper. All i could say that the paper was really difficult that i couldn't do MOST of the questions!!! i think out of 50 marks, i would simply get a 1-digit mark only. This is not surprising though for the fact that i've always done really badly for my Geography! so i just pray for all the best!!!

On tuesday was National Day's eve. Therefore, there were no lessons on that day but performances and stuffs. The performances held in the hall was totally hilarious and a lil bit lame, but i guess i did enjoy myself. After that, some of my classmates and me went to our class to build a kite. i thought it was rather stupid la to do a kite for no reasonable reason. but ya..so it turns out that the kite we built could not fly. haha.kesian eh.

on wednesday pula, well it was National Day! LOL..like as i care. but yeah..went to my uncle's house to celebrate 2 of his daughters' b'day. that was all on National day. quite boring rite? then on thursday. i was at home taking care of my 5-months old nephew, Danish since my sis,bro-in law is working..and my mum had something on. well thats all la. And oh ya..tomorow..im going to Batam with my family!!! HAHA. we'll be back on Sunday. so this is just a 2 days 1 night holiday trip. i've never been to Batam b4 ar..well i dun know y..but im not really excited. maybe bcoz im just too tired over studies. haiz..stress!!! the pressure is rising NOW! its only 2/3 weeks b4 my SS N level paper begins!!!!