Things Change. People Change.

I'm soo gonna join the inter-school dance competition. 1st time, I'm asking myself to join something so badly. I really wanna dance once again. And although some might not agree into me joining this competition (so obvious by the look of it), I believe I have my own right to do what I want. Singapore is a democratic country, remember?? I know some of u look down on me coz 1stly, I'm fat. 2ndly, I don't dance well, 3rdly, I dont catch steps fast. But Im really trying right now to be able to catch steps fast. All these while I've been learning to do that and I think I can do better than last time. Try pulling me down as much as u want, coz I've changed the perception of wat people said about me. The more u criticise me, the more I try to prove you wrong. To all these people, Fi, zyk, shikin, sheedah, kapil, thanks for giving me hope and confidence for whatever I do,including dance. Especially to Fi and zyk I must say, you guys really help me alot to overcome my fear. I will really prove to people that I can do it good. So to the others who think ure super good and u think u can bring me down with ur actions and words, try harder next time!!!!!!! :)

And Im kinda enjoying school nowadays.

School:

1st week of school was just okay. It was actually sucky at the starting but slowly it's kinda okay. Made some new friends in class. Well it's kinda bored actually la my class but have to get used to it!! Anyway school is for me to study so ya, all that matters is my studies. But still I love ITE CE coz I have alot of friends there from other classes!! Tomorrow I'm schooling. And I'm feeling slightly lazy already to go. Haha. But I must go la......

Dance:

All my dance mates have been busy with dance either for performances or competitions. Yeah, I'm the one just sitting around. And somehow, I have the big sudden feeling to dance once again! Maybe coz seeing them dance and all seems fun! And I felt like I already have a long long break and I am sick of coming to practice just sitting around watching them dance! Haha! Waiting for my turn to have MY practice too. Don't know when.....hopefully I'm not forgotten though.....................

Friends:

You have slowly become even more fucked up. What's with your attitude?? Thought you were a good fren but slowly you have been changing. Even your other frens are saying about you. Stop your bragging and all. Don't 4get who was the one who helps you become what you are right now. And your words can be really hurtful at times ar. Just watch out ar one day... what goes around comes around...

P.S Stop thinking your so good and mighty..coz seriously, you are nothing..

Family:

Fought with my mum last week. But now, everything's fine. Yeah I am sorry for what I have done lately..but all I need was YOUR trust....

Monday, 7 April

Last Monday, went out with zyk, Muni & Wan. 1st we went to Aliwal St near Bugis to sign the contract for the job for Baby Looney tunes show which will begin on 23rd May at Parkway Parade. I really miss these kind of jobs a lot. However, instead of becoming the coordinator, now I'm working as the crowd control this time around. Zyk will be the only coordinator,which means the rest is the same as me.

After going to Aliwal St, we decided to just walk around at town area. We took a bus from Aliwal St and ended up in Tanjong Pagar!! Haha yeah we were idiots. So we did walk from Tanjong pagar to City Hall! It was tiring, especially to me and Muni! We are sensitive to the weather you see. We hate hot weather coz we will perspire easily and yet we hate windy weather too coz the wind will blow our lovely hair!!! Best would to be in an air-conditioned room for us.haha.

We took a break at Marina Square ( totally sick of this place already!). Accompanied zyk to Burger King as she wanted to eat. It was already almost to 7pm when we wanted to leave City Hall. Muni wanted to go to Sengkang to meet her baby Lan (her so-called guy) but at that point of time me & Wan wasn't sure whether we wanna accompany her to Sengkang coz we promised to meet Andreas, Ayeen & Fie in Tampines. But after much consideration, we decided to follow Muni coz she would be alone going to Sengkang and furthermore it's not always that we get to meet her too coz she has been busy with her work & etc. Went off back home at around 10 pm.

Later at around 2am, went to meet Fie & Ayeen near my house area. Then we sat under the block which is just opposite of my house. Fie bought a tub of Ben & Jerry for us to share! Woohoo I love ice cream a lot! And as a repayment, I cooked for them fried chicken ( Fie's fave chicken from me ) and chicken nuggets. At around 5 am, brought Fie & Ayeen to dome nearby my block for them to take a rest/nap. And guys, I'm sorry that I didnt bring you guys along to my house coz currently, my friends are restricted to come to my house due to some reasons. Hope u guys understand. And Fie, thanks alot for treating us for countless times. I feel thankful but at the same time, I feel really bad. I promised that if i got the money 1 day, I'll treat you too!!

Tuesday, 8 April

Get to meet Ayeen, Fie, Muni, Wan & zyk once again. This time around, there's Andreas too, whom I have not met for quite some time. Our intention is to go to Ite Simei to buy more uniforms there but upon reaching there, we were told that the uniforms were currently unavailable and so we proceeded to Expo (just opposite of Ite Simei) as Fie wanted to go to the John Little Sales. After that, went to Northpark dome. I followed the rest for their practice there. Miss that place. It's been some time we've not been there. Too much memories there. Be it a happy one or sad one. That dome was the 1st place I ever practice for a dance competition. HAHA. Ok they didnt practice much actually. All we did was talking and more talking. haha.

To zyk, I understand ur feelings. I have been through there before alot of times. They are like that at times. That is why I told you before sometimes you need to rely on your own. Don't depend on them too much. Even if you are struggling, I'll be trying my best to help you in every possible way! To the others, please, if you consider yourself as a group member, please help each other. zyk really needs help bcoz she's not been dancing for so long already. I wasn't happy how u guys taught her that day. It's like the heck-care attitude you guys are giving. I just wish for once, u guys wont only think of yourselves that much. And this does not include you, my dear leader. takmo terase tau! But ya, I hope u can talk to them abt how they should be helping the ones in need.

Went to Seoul Garden at Ngee Ann City yesterday with my family to celebrate my brother-in-law's belated birthday. Had a feastful dinner. I ate quite a lot! But my sis told me that this is the 1st time i ate quite a little and slow for such a place. Haha maybe I'm slightly conscious about what I eat now, that's why. Don't wanna force myself to swallow all those food. 1st time eh I didn't take toilet breaks in between time to shit!! Haha. Usually I would shit 3-4 times when eating Seoul garden. U can ask my friends zyk & Fito! My cousin took photos for yesteday's celebration but I haven't receive the pictures yet. Gonna get it soon hopefully so that I can post it here. I realised that my blog is lacking of pictures which makes my blog looks boring and dull.

Speaking of me eating food slowly nowadays, that is a good thing! Read in a magazine that proves that chewing every morsel slowly saves you about 70 calories each meal. And do you know sleeping helps you to lose weight too??HAHA. It is said that a good night's rest helps burn your calories! Wow, huh? Ok I knew this from 8 days magazine my sis bought lah.

Ok, I can't sleep right now and it's early in the morning. Guess what I have been doing all this while? Yeah, searching for the type of mp3 I would like to buy! I could spent the whole night searching for the right mp3. What brand should I choose? Creative? Ipod? Samsung? I am really confused right now!

Step ada duit je untuk beli mp3. Thinking of borowing my mum's money 1st. Haven't ask her yet still!! Hopefully she'll lend the money to me. But looking at the situation currently... Hmmph..

Really hope I would get that job in May. Really need the money. Going to Australia in June and my family ain't supplying me with the shopping expenses!! I'm in desperate to get that job, zyk!!

Months wasted going out everyday doing nothing beneficial. Could have spent the holidays working like what the others do. Instead, daily routines are to meet friends hanging out, wasting money on fast food, cigarettes and transport. Now my mum is pissed off coz everday I asked her for cash without even having the initiative to work while I can to earn some cash on my own. Yeah, I regret it alot right now. The pay could have gotten me a new mp3 which I totally need one, new branded shoe ( preferably an Adidas shoe) and new clothes!! Haha that's the real reason why I've been staying at home lately because I have no money to go out anymore. Mum won't give me cash. I understand why though. Whatever it is, school's gonna start soon.

P.S I fucking need an mp3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stress sia hidup without music!!

Been at home lately. Trying my best to be a filial son at home, helping out my mum with her house chores and taking care of the toddlers. Miss my friends especially zyk & Fi.

Last week's (Friday) pit with my dance friends was quite okay. Did have fun with them. However, there were some unpleasant moments on the 2nd night of the pit. I was pissed and sad because of it. I really felt like going home at that point of time. Thankfully, there were Faruq, Sue & Susi who comforted and console me. I really owe it to you guys for making the situation better. In fact, I would say the pit would be meaningless if you guys weren't there coz it's like as if the rest were having their own thing, and we have our own thing. So kalau korang takde confirm aku will be mendak there. Third night (Sunday) was the best but it was the last day too. Was supposed to reach home on Sunday but me, Andreas, Ayeen, Fi, Mael & Aim end up going home on Monday.Haha. Yeaps, we went straight from East Coast to Tampines on the night we're supposed to be at home by right. We ton at Sunplaza dome. Hate that place because of the mosquitoes there!!!! To view pics of the pit, click here.

Planning to buy stuffs for school. School's gonna start real soon. Wonder how life would be in ITE Simei. I'm gonna buy new shoe, bag and jeans!!

And I'm trying my best to lose weight. And yes, I'm progressing! Gonna prove to you guys dat I can do so much better!! Waiting for that day when u gonna look at me, feeling envious and regretful for what you have said.