Today was a hectic and bad day for me!! My CMOS end-year exam started at 11am and guess what?? I woke up at 11am!! I rushed like crazy, took a cab. Run and run till I reached the function hall where I took my exam. Luckily I was still able to take the paper because I really do not know what to do if I were not able to take it. What would I tell to my mum and etc. ? Gosh and I was having a bloody good dream before I woke up!! I dreamt that my group, LE won 1st for a hip hop comp we took part!! LOL

I was sweating and panting in the function hall like a pathetic idiot. Never in my life had I been late for my exam before, never in my life I did not bath to go for a school's exam ( ya it happened today LOL)!

I realised that I have trouble waking up early these days and this is affecting my life. I don't know what is happening. I'm drifting apart with education and I spent less time with family. Sometimes I do wonder, have I changed alot for the worse?? 

Back in 2 years ago, I was a nerd in EVSS. I do not have much friends. I do not go and chill out with friends alot. My weekends are spent with my family. I always go home straight after school. My life seems boring during those days. Yet, it was great too because I was quite good in my studies. It makes my family happy, it makes me happy. At that point of time, all I wanted was my family to be happy. All I need in my life was them. All I wanted was a good education.

Then suddenly, 2007 came. Slowly and slowly, I started going home late. Started losing focus on studies. Started asking mom for more money. Started going out every weekends. Less time on studies and family, spent more time with my friends. At that point of time, I felt really really happy. Finally I'm having the time of my life; having lots of friends to hang out with, do things with them. 

Now I realised how I am drifting apart with my family. Now I realised how my perception is about studies. Lately, I've been thinking not to school coz it's no use. I'm too lazy to study etc. I don't know what has become of me. Why do I think this way?? I used to be determined, I used to be slightly more hardworking. I am confused. I am happy with my life now coz I got freedom, I can do anything I want yet what this supposed to be my freedom gets worse and its taking over me. It makes me feel that I should enjoy enjoy and enjoy and not to think of studies etc. 

I'm STRESS!!!!!!