I do enjoy it but I don't think I'm cut out to be a dancer. Always has been a sidekick in the group, always being just a lamp post to the group. No room for improvement. And I just hate the attitude in the group. I'm never looking forward to coming to practice. Listen to people bragging about themselves. Said things that could hurt my feelings. Do things that make me angry. I know I am a loser in here but I'm still a human, I got feelings, I got pride. I know they don't need me and I am pulling myself out, so no worries. I really am not interested on this dance thingy, period.
After 27, I'm all done!! Free like a bird. I'm gonna start working in my family stall, spend more times with my friends that give me all the love I need. It's going to be Hari Raya anyway so ya...it's all about having fun!!
And I have a new interest, which is cooking. Better do something that I can feel good about myself. It's about time I learn culinary skills from my mum, who has been a chef before. There's alot to learn and I'm gonna really learn. Mana tau, I could be a chef 1 day. Hehehe.
P.S I've been keeping it to myself all this while and It's about time I stand up for myself. You guys might not realise, but every little thing said or the actions did do hurt me in many ways. Am I just an object that can be used anytime you want, and when not in need, just being kept? Is it that oblivious to you guys? I want to change but I just can't. So I just give up....... I surrender!!
