Family
I don't know why but it seems like we're falling apart. I don't even know how to begin with all the problems that has caused in the house. I thought that everything is going smoothly when all of the sudden, the fight and hatred came again. I never really posted about my family problems here. And in fact I've never really told anyone my friends about the problems I had but now, it seems like the situation is getting worse and I can't take it anymore!!! How many tears I shed despite trying my best to be strong as a young man. But its just so painful to see your own sis fighting shouting with your own mum. It almost seems like they are enemies now.
I love you both so much and I can't stand when you both are fighting. And I feel soo sooo useless that I can't help with the matter. That feels even worse. It's like I really hate myself for being a good-for-nothing brother/son. But all I wanted was just us to be ok but it seems like you both are expecting so much. I thought our family was the perfect family anyone could find but seems like it is not anymore. I don't know when this fight and hatred is gonna end but seriously I had enough! There were times I actually feel like running away from home but I know I won't coz I love you both so much than anything else in the world!!
Friends
zyk ( Best Friend)
Somehow I got the feeling that we're not as close as before. But maybe I'm just being paranoid. Like you said, you were busy with school and family. But yeah, I just wana say that I miss you alot and there are so much things I wanted to tell you and in need of a listeng ear but you weren't there but I understand your situation too la. well ur still my best friend ok. I'm just telling this again coz I want the whole world to know that I had a wonderful best fren! Haha. And as usual, sorry if I've always been irritating or sarcastic to you.
Wan ( Good friend)
The friend that I'm always with now. So I guess I feel like the friendship is better now la. Coz I do know that we had some issues with each other few months back. Ur blog on what you said, remember? Haha. I am trying my best to please you as a friend coz I can see that you are still irritated with me by my way of talking or how I always broke my promise(eg. bangun lambat when supposed to meet you). But that's just me. LOL. And thanks for being the listening ear for thiese past few days la.
Herda ( friend cum personal motivator)
Even though we're not close with each other but despite being just a normal fren, you still care for me can see that. You always try your best to help your friends and I really appreciate the fact that you're guiding me in terms of life or studies. Your words made sense and it really helped me. I once feel like I wanted to quit school coz all I wanted was to enjoy life but this young lady helped me to realise that studies comes first la and think about my future. The minute she get her 'O' level results and that she get to go Poly, all I knew is that I wanted to focus on my studies. I know that people,friends like to call you names like stupid la..bimbo la but to look back at Surfers, your one of the few to actually go to Poly! Haha. So its a good example lor. People also call me stupid always so I can prove them that I can be smart too I guess. Haha.
And FYI, i still wana quit ITE if can. HAHA. What I meant is to focus on my private 'O'.
P.S And of coz I love my other friends too Shikin, Hasif, Andreas and many many more!
