Things Change. People Change.

I am just dissappointed and loss for words. Ok maybe what I did was a little too much. My personal message, my past blog entries and all. But what I did was what an angry best friend would do to seek for attention from his friend. To at least get a reaction from his best friend. But nothing happens. It almost seems you don't care a hoot about it. If it is true what you said that you still care for the friendship, why can't I see any effort from you? For the past weeks, I put a brave front that I don't mind losing you after what you did, but deep inside, I do care for you coz of all the friendship we have built be it good or bad. Yet, nothing expresses how you feel about this matter. It almost seems like you don't care. Maybe I took it seriously. Or maybe you think it's just a slight matter?

Everytime me and the rest of friends read your blog, everyone is stunned. Like wow, she's enjoying her life so much huh? Wait is it wrong to have fun? No it's not. But can't she see the messages her friend is trying to convey? Is like she's having so much fun..is she sharing with her other friends? Friends that shared their fun with her once many times. So from your blog entries, it looks like nothing has happened in your life and you are so happy; when everytime we read your blog, we felt angry and pissed off. Everyone said, ' wah banyak masa dia untuk dgn orang lain. Untuk kita, punyalah susah.' Tell me, what am I supposed to say? It is the truth that we are stating.

Regarding the Live N Loaded, yes I was pissed off. But I believe your other friend is more upset. She is none other than Shikin. 1stly, you didnt tell me about the tix. I thought you would bring me seriously. But nvm. What you said is somehow true. I dont like gigs. So that is the excuse you gave why you didnt bring me. What about Shikin??? I thought you said you are going with her?? So I asked Shikin, and she said this to me. '' Ya she said she wanted to bring me. But she didnt actually bring me at last. She didnt even inform me. I was shocked la when I read her blog and find out she left me!!''

You really showed like you dont care for us anymore. And yes, I do feel like I'm a second hand friend!! Wow, so you meet us coz you are bored and you have no plans kan?? Seriously I had enough. I feel soooo devastated. And I'm feeling even worse coz it seems like you don't take this thing seriously. Macam takda hal gitu. I was expecting something from you. I thought you could do something about it. But no, you did not. I really don't know If I should call you a close friend of mine anymore or not. I've been through alot of shit and all and you weren't there for me. I had alot and alot of problems going on yet you are busy. Ok busy with your studies is definitely fine. But busy accompanying your friends to eat( like almost everytime) it looks like it is more important. It really hurts alot coz I want you to be the one sharing my problems with but you are no longer there anymore. I totally give up. Tell me how many times these problems come and I am always the one to correct it.

I really don't understand you. You have changed alot. I don't know. you said this to me once and I'm gonna say it back to you. Who are you and what have you done to ZYK??

DONT CONTACT ME ANYMORE IF CAN. NO IM NOT TRYING TO GET RID OF YOU IN MY LIFE. I JUST WANT SPACE AND TIME FROM YOU FOR THE MEAN TIME COZ I WANT TO ENJOY LIFE TOO. I DONT WANT TO BE THE ONE SUFFERING WHILE YOU ARE SOOOOO HAVING MUCH FUN IN YOUR LIFE LIKE AS IF NOTHING HAPPEN GITU.

Oh, and fyi, I am not interested with the live n loaded tix. It was a test to see who you would actually cared to bring ah. And aku orang jiwa. Even if you have a tix for me, but not for the rest of OUR friends ( I remember I thought shikin was supposingly your gig partner), I wont go. So forget about it. The answer is clear already.